If you had taken a
boy of 13 and given him all my conditions, bound him hand and
foot, when you became afraid of him petted him into docility, and
then placed him in the world and, while urging normal sexuality
upon him on the one hand, made him disgusted with it on the
other, what would have been the probable result?
"Looking back, I can only say I think, the results in my own case
were marvellously good, and that I was saved from worse by my own
innocence and by the physical backwardness which nature, probably
in mercy, bestowed upon me.
"I find it difficult to sum up the way in which I affect other
women and they me. I can only record my conviction that I do
affect a large number, whether abnormally or not I don't know,
but I attract them and it would be easy for some of them to
become very fond of me if I gave them a chance. They are also, I
am certain, more shy with me than they are with other women.
"I find it difficult also to sum up their effect on me. I only
know that some women attract me and some tempt me physically, and
have done ever since I was about 22 or 23.
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