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Ellis, Havelock, 1859-1939

"Sexual Inversion"

Sexual expression may be quite necessary at certain
times and right under certain conditions, but I am convinced that
free expression of affection along sentimental channels will do
much to minimize the necessity for it along specifically sexual
channels. I have gone three months without the physical outlet.
The only time I was ever on the verge of nervous prostration was
after having suppressed the instinct for ten months. The other
feelings, which I do not consider as sexual feelings at all, so
fill my life in every department--love, literature, poetry,
music, professional and philanthropic activities--that I am able
to let the physical take care of itself. When the physical
sensations come, it is usually when I am not thinking of a loved
one at all. I could dissipate them by raising my thought to that
spiritual friendship. I do not know if this was right and wise. I
know it is what occurred. It seems a good thing to practise some
sort of inhibition of the centers and acquire this kind of
domination. One bad result, however, was that I suffered much at
times from the physical sensations, and felt horribly depressed
and wretched whenever they seemed to get the better of me.


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