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Ellis, Havelock, 1859-1939

"Sexual Inversion"

Till 8 years I was excessively timid of the
dark and, indeed, of all loneliness. This passed, however, and
developed into an extreme sensitiveness of seeing or meeting
people. Even on a country road I would walk miles out of my way
to avoid meeting the ordinary yokel. At this period my day-dreams
were my favorite occupation. Even to the present day my visions
take up the greater part of my life. Though timid I was not
wanting in courage. At an early age I would fight boys even older
than myself. Later I have risked my life many times in various
parts of Europe. As regards sports, I can do a little of
everything: swimming, riding, fencing, shooting,--a little of
each. Cricket and football I also played passably, but sports
never interested me much. Literature became and is the passion
of my life and for some years has remained my sole occupation.
"At 8 years the sexual inversion began to manifest itself, though
till I had attained 10 years of age I was practically quite
innocent. At 8 years of age, my family removed to another country
and I made the acquaintance of a little boy who attracted me
sexually.


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