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She excited his
imagination, and he really loved her; but she did not, even in
the closest contact, stimulate his sexual appetite. Once, when he
kissed her just after she had risen from bed in the morning, a
curious physical repugnance came over him, attended with a sad
feeling of disappointment.
He was strongly advised to marry by physicians. At last he did
so. He found that he was potent, and begot several children, but
he also found, to his disappointment, that the tyranny of the
male genital organs on his fancy increased. Owing to this cause
his physical, mental, and moral discomfort became acute. His
health gave way.
At about the age of 30, unable to endure his position any longer,
he at last yielded to his sexual inclinations. As he began to do
this, he also began to regain calm and comparative health. He
formed a close alliance with a youth of 19. This _liaison_ was
largely sentimental, and marked by a kind of etherealized
sensuality. It involved no sexual acts beyond kissing, naked
contact, and rare involuntary emissions.


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