"From our windows at home we looked over a bit of common or down
to the beach, and I used to keep watch on warm summer afternoons;
over boys who might be bathing, to observe them through our
telescope. All this I kept strictly secret and I was never
surprised. I might just as well, and without arousing the
slightest suspicion of my motive, have walked down to the beach
and seen them and chatted with them; but this I could not have
brought myself to do. It gave me considerable sexual satisfaction
when I was able to see them bathing without pants. I also used to
watch them at play on the common, and felt rewarded when I saw,
as I not infrequently did, sexual familiarities taking place.
These violently excited me and sometimes brought on orgasm,
always erection with pleasure. Indeed, it was an experience of
this kind that made me return to masturbation after I had given
it up for a while. I remember one day seeing two lads of about 16
lying on the grass in the sunshine; all at once the bigger lad
put out his hand and tried to open his companion's trousers.
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