" About this time, indeed, he at times slept with
a sister of 10, who induced him to go through the form of sexual
connection, saying that it felt "so funny;" but he merely did
this to please her, and without the slightest interest or feeling
on his own part. This attitude became more marked with increased
knowledge, until he fell ardently in love at the age of 12.
Throughout life he has practised masturbation to a certain
extent, and is prepared to defend the practice in his own case.
His erotic dreams have been of only the vaguest and most shadowy
character. He is able to whistle. He takes a warm interest in
politics and in philanthropic work. But his chief love is for
music and he has published many musical compositions. On the
whole, and notwithstanding the persecution he has endured, he
does not regard his life as unhappy. At the same time he is
keenly conscious of the atmosphere of "Pariahdom" which surrounds
inverts, and in his own case this has never been alleviated by
any sense of companionship in misery. The facility with which
some inverts are said to recognize others of their own kind is
quite incomprehensible to him; he has never to his knowledge met
one.
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