This constant repression is trying beyond
measure to the nerves, and I often feel quite ill from that
cause. Having had no experiences of my own, I am always anxious
to learn anything I can of the sexual relations of other men, and
their organs, but I have no curiosity whatever concerning the
other sex. My chief pleasure and source of gratification is found
in the opportunities afforded by Turkish and other baths;
wherever, in fact, there is the nude male to be found. But I
seldom find in these places anyone who seems to have the same
tendency as myself, and certainly I have not met with more than
two cases among the attendants, who responded to my hinted desire
to see everything. Under a shampooer, particularly an unfamiliar
one, I occasionally experience an orgasm, but less often now than
when I was younger."
F.R. is very short-sighted. His favorite color is blue. He is
able to whistle. His tastes are chiefly of a literary character,
and he has never had any liking for sports. "I have been
generally considered ineffective in the use of my hands," he
writes, "and I am certainly not skillful.
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